I love you but I don't know how much longer I want to be with you.
3 weeks ago my mother and I spent 9 hours cleaning our flat. I kept it tidy for a week and a half before I gave up because you weren't helping me.
Your birthday is in a few days and you expect me to buy you the most expensive presents, yet for my birthday you could only spend $17.
I ask you to do things to help me and you sit there and just stare at me. Now you're offering to pay me $50 to clean the house.
I don't appreciate being used.
I don't appreciate being treated like shit by the person who supposedly loves me.
I wish I had friends who I could talk to who would understand.

My mother thinks that I'm lazy because the house is a mess.
I've only spent all year trying to form a good relationship with her.

i had the most awful dreams last night.
the first was you cheating on me right infront of my face. *ugh*
the second was you being told by my dad that you could drive his car home in return for favours....

ARGH!!!

you broke my phone....

the last working one i had...

i guess the title of this blog doesnt really fit anymore.
2012...its been and gone....
and only 5 days into the new year have i been ditched and left to clean the house. cause you sure as hell weren't going to do it. i was just lucky that my mother called me and told me she was helping me.
it doesn't help when you come home with your sister and flaunt that you're going to the beach. you didn't even thank my mother...with the excuse of "she didn't have to..." and now to find out that your little sister is saying homw you can keep your room clean and i can't. yea right. if you  knew half the story you would know that for the last 2 weeks, she's been sitting on her arse doing nothing...or running away with your family.

i just feel as though i have to watch my back now. why am i always the bad guy. you said i was rude because my mother shouldnt have gone through your stuff. which she didn't. i sorted it all. ugh.